The Big Day is Almost Here...

I am finally admitted to Gleneagles today... they give me the single exec room. Thank God for that! At least some privacy for me and for my family and friends!

I was told by the nurses that my operation tomorrow will be after 12.30pm. Apperently Dr Aziz has other patients to operate on before me. So I have to wait for my turn. I will start fasting from 7 am tomorrow and the nurses will also make necessary preps on me before the operation.

My bestfriends - Jan, Aya, Liza and Laila all came visit me today. I'm so gald for that! Kept me from thinking about what will happen tomorrow. And my mum is keeping me company right now. So grateful for that too! My dad and sisters will also come again tomorrow.

Well... right now there's nothing else to say or do but to pray to God that all will turn out fine and well tomorrow and that operation will be smooth. Amin!

Wish me luck! :)

Single Ladies New Year Day Out!

I had a blast with my bestfriends, Jan, Aya and Laila, today. We went to Pavilion and started our day at RedBox, singing to our hearts' contents. We may be going 33 this year but hey, what has age got to do anything with having fun?

Whilst uploading the pictures of our day out into Facebook, I realised that I've been friends with these 3 fine ladies since 1998. Wow! That was 12 years ago and I am very blessed to have them as my friends and supporters for all these years.

I've got to admit that I've met many people and made new friends along the way but these girls have always held the strongest bond of friendship with me. With them, I can be myself. I can share my happiness and sadness, my fear and strength with them. I think, apart from my family, they are the only people who can accept me the way I am. I know I am not perfect and had sometimes erred in my speech or action. But with them, I know there's always a room for forgiveness.

Of course there were times when we had misunderstandings or quarreled, but we never betrayed each other or manipulated one another. We give and take, we share, tak pernah berkira. I think in those times when one of us got angry to the other, we always thought of the good and bad times that we've been through together and decided that this friendship is too precious to be broken by trivial matters.

As we grew older and lead separate lives, we never forget each other. We may have not contacted one another or meet up that often, but deep in my heart I know I can still count on them for that shoulder to cry on or for that piece of advice or simply for a good time.

These are the people that I want to keep by my side forever and I hope they will stay the way they are. And I hope they feel the same way about me coz I want to stay by their side forever. Thanks for this friendship, girls.

Lean On Me [by Bill Withers]
Sometimes in our lives we all have pain

We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow


Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on


Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me


So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on


Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on


Lean on me...

A Sonnet For My Friend

A soul of kindness
Her heart brings brightness
A friend in need
Is a true friend indeed

Secrets unfold
Her love never cold
Laughter and tears
She holds both so dear

Wise she is not
But smart all the same
When her mood is hot
She could drive me insane!

A silent listener
An informal adviser
Criticize she has never
Or judgmental to others

She is a cheer
She is my dear
Always by my side
In high or low tides

A friend for ever
I wish she would be
We’ll stay together
In life’s eternity

A Note On Friendship

Through my 28 years of life, I have met many people from different races,religions and backgrounds. Most of them I have befriended... some are still my friends (always in my thought but seldom contacted)...My fondest memories of friendship are those when I was still in uni... when I was completing my degrees. Jan, Laila, Eda, Tuya, Liza, Ana, Asdi, Aya & Ita...

They were and are still my good friends. But as I move on with my live, and grow older and more mature in terms of emotions and mentality, I find that some of the friendships seeds I sowed have grown into beautiful blossoming flowers... some just died and never grow. But the ones which are indeed in full bloom, I so cherish and love with all my heart.

But my most favourite and cherished friendship flower is "My Daisy". We started out as just friends with similar interest... books, music, movies... Then we realised that we have begun to understand each other better and to accept each other's flaws and bad habits. In time, we began to confide to each other and share the other's secrets. Strange but true... we seldom say "I love" to each other, and yet we always now that our love and hope for each other are beyond words!! And suddenly we become "bestfriends", a concept which sometimes wrongly interpreted and used.

"My Daisy" is indeed my bestfriend in the truest meaning of the term. Everything I do or I want to do... I must tell her and share with her. When I need someone to turn to, she is the first one that pops into my mind... the second one is my boyfriend. She always keeps an open mind to everything I want to tell her. And I have great pleasure entertaining her moods... happy, sad, lonely, excited, angry, embarass, fear... And I always try to make myself available to her as much as I can. Sounds like a devoted love, but it is actually not like that... We simply try to be there to each other and be honest to each other...

There are times when can't always be together but we always know that we are in each other's heart and thought. That's the power of "bestfriendship"! Somebody once had said to me that "Frienship is another kind of love... it's the happy feeling you get when you are laughing or sharing a secret". I find that this message rings true between me and "My Daisy". I find most pleasure when we laugh together and when she confides something in me.... and vice versa. Well, when we have a good friend by our side, we should be grateful. Not everybody find their "soulmate" in friendship.

Nevertheles, one day when I be somebody's wife, my friendship with "My Daisy" would surely take a different turn because when I am married, my responsibilities and priorities will change. No doubt, at those times, "My Daisy" would feel that she is neglected or abandoned. However, I believe that the meaning of friendship does not lie in the amount of time we spend together... but on the thoughts that we had for each other and knowing that she will be there when I need her, and I will be there when she needs me... I wish I have the lyrics to "You Got A Friend" (Carol King) but I think the poem of friendship below would do....

I got to know a girl
Whose past had not been a thrill
But once you get to know her deep inside
You'll begin to see her beauty, both inside and outside
I can't help but feel attracted
And trying hard not to be distracted
Although some may call it a crush
But then again it's not a feeling which came in a rush
I once saw her crying
And you know that she's hurting
Wanted to touch and hug her
But I guess my mind just began to wander
They say life is tough
And you'll never know when you may meet an arshloch !
Though circumstances had not been kind
She nevertheless is not blind
For she knows that the past
Would not determine her future
Unless she allows it to last
And not see the real picture
My hope for her is that she'll one day find
Both happiness and joy
In a person who would be kind
Who isn't just another ploy
In the meantime, she will find tremendous joy
In her kids who would not turn down a good toy
And if she ever needed a friend to be
I hope that she could find it in me

Jan, thank you for always being there for me...