Langkawi, The Island Of Dreams

Hi! How is everybody? I bet everyone is counting down for the new year at this moment.

But, before we go on about the coming 2006 (any minutes now), here are some pictures taken during my trip to Langkawi Island. My family and I had the most wonderful and fun time in Langkawi.

After seeing and experiencing the island, I am now proud to say that Langkawi is indeed one of the most beautiful islands in the world! The people are warm and friendly, the food are delicious, and the scenery are simply gorgeous! I would definitely go and visit Langkawi again.

We stayed at the Langkasuka Resort, only five minutes away from the Langkawi Airport. Quite a nice resort with it's own private beach.

On our first day, after checking in at the hotel, we when out for a quick tour at Pekan Kuah, the main town of Langkawi. We cruised around the duty free shops and had a quick look around the gift and souvenirs shops there. In the afternoon, we went back to the hotel and swam at the private beach.

On the next day, we went to Langkawi Oriental Park. They have a rabbit farm, a deer farm, a few sourvenir shops and restaurants. The main attraction is the cable car, which is the longest one in the world. The cable car will take you up to the highest hill in Langkawi. The view from up there was spectacular! Took my breath away! The most beautiful combination of the colours blue, white and green... in all shades!

The night scenery in Langkawi is also very beautiful. I have never seen so many stars in my life!

On our second day, we went island hopping by a rented boat. First, we went to Pulau Dayang Bunting (the Virgin Maiden Island). There are lots of monkeys there, so we have to be careful with our plastic bags or they will snatch it from us as they have associated the plastic bags with food. At the heart of the Virgin Maiden Island is a beautiful lake surrounded by hills and trees. The water is so cool and perfect for swimming. You can also hitch a ride on the paddle boat around the lake.

Our second island is Pulau Singa Besar (the Big Lion Island). It is the natural habitat for the Langkawi eagles. It was my first encounter with wild eagles and it was thrilling! Such magnificent birds! Our boatman threw some chicken skins into the water and the eagles flew around above us and one by one they flew down and snatched the chicken skins from the water.

Our last island is Pulau Beras Basah (the Wet Rice Island). We spent almost 3 hours here swimming. The water was so clear and blue and the sand was the whitest I have ever seen. I had so much fun swimming and collecting seashells there.

We went back to the hotel at around 4pm. We were dead tired but also so happy. Around 6 pm, we went to Pekan Kuah and did some shopping. We flew back to Kuala Lumpur on the next day.

Oh, forgot to tell you that it was also my first experience on an airplane. On our flight to Langkawi, I experienced the worst case of air pressure. I felt like my head was going to explode! Thank God, the flight back to KL was okay.

So, that's my story of my trip to Langkawi. I hope one of these days I can go back there and experience the same fun I had.

No Me Ames

Do you have a favourite duet? Mine is No Me Ames by Jennifer Lopez (sexy kitten!) and Marc Anthony (that voice could cut me into pieces!). I am not only in love with the song, I am also in love with the videoclip. I cried everytime I saw it!

Dime porque lloras
De felicidad
Y porque te ahogas
Por la soledad
Di porque me tomas
Fuerte asi, mis manos
Y tus pensamientos
Te van llevando
Yo te quiero tanto
Y porque sera
Loco testarudo
No lo dudes mas
Aunque en el futuro
Haya un muro enorme
Yo no tengo miedo
Quiero enamorarme
No me ames
Porque pienses
Que parezco diferente
Tu no piensas que es lo justo
Ver pasar el tiempo juntos
No me ames
Que comprendo
La mentira que seria
Si tu amor no merezco
No me ames
Mas quedate otro dia
No me ames
Porque estoy perdido
Porque cambie el mundo
Porque es el destino
Porque no se puede
Somos un espejo
Y tu asi serias
Lo que yo de mi reflejo
No me ames
Para estar muriendo
Dentro de una guerra
Llena de arrepentimientos
No me ames
Para estar en tierra
Quiero alzar el vuelo
Con tu gran amor
Por el azul del cielo
No se que decirte
Esa es la verdad
Si la gente quiere
Sabe lastimar
Tu y yo partiremos
Ellos no se mueven
Pero en este cielo
Sola no me dejes
No me dejes, no me dejes
No me eschuches
Si te digo "no me ames"
No me dejes, no desarmes
Mi corazon con ese "no me ames"
No me ames, te lo ruego
Mi amargura dejame
Sabes bien, que no puedo
Que es inutil
Que siempre te amare
No me ames
Pues te hare sufrir
Con este corazon que
Se lleno de mil inviernos
No me ames
Para asi olvidarte
De tus dias grises
Quiero que me ames
Solo por amarme
No me ames
Tu y yo volaremos
Uno con el otro
Y seguiremos siempre juntos
Este amor es como el sol que sale
Tras de la tormenta
Como dos cometas
En la misma estela
No me ames
No me ames
No me ames
No, no me ames
No me ames
No me ames
No me ames

I have the translation below... It's actually a conversation between two people. One is afraid to love and be loved, and the other is ready to sacrifice everything for love. That's sweet. But in real life, is there anyone who's willing to sacrifice for love? I've met lots of people who are afraid of love, but the ones who are willing to sacrifice for love are rare to find. As for me, if I could have someone who is willing to make sacrifices in order to love me, I would be ready to sacrifice to love him too!

Marc:Why are you crying?
Jennifer:Because i'm happy
Marc:Why are you so choked up?
Jennifer:From loneliness
Marc:Why are you squeezing
My hand so tight
And your mind seems to be wandering
Jennifer:I love you so much!
Marc:Why?
Jennifer:Don't be so hard-headed
Stop doubting me!
It doesn't matter what the future holds
I'm not afraid
I just want to love you
Marc:Don't love me
Because you think i'm different
Jennifer:You don't think it's right for us
To spend this time together?
Marc:Don't love me because i know
What a lie it would be!
Jennifer:If you don't think i deserve your love
Then don't love me
I'm going to stay...
Marc:Don't love me because i'm lost
Because i change the world
Because it's destiny
Because this is impossible
We are like a mirror image of each other
We are one and the same
Jennifer:Don't love me to be dying
In a war of regret
Don't love me to hold me back
I want to rise above
This love deserves to soar through the sky
Marc:I don't know what to say
That's the truth
When people want to
They can really hurt you
Jennifer:If you and i part now
It won't matter to anyone else
In this big world
Don't leave me all alone
Marc:Don't leave me...don't leave me
Don't listen when i say "don't love me"
Jennifer:Don't leave me
Stop breaking my heart with that"don't love me"
Marc:Don't love me, i'm begging you to leave
Jennifer:You know very well i can't do that
It's useless, i'll always love you
Marc:Don't love me
I'll only make you suffer
My heart has turned cold with this
Jennifer:Don't love me
To run away from your sadness
I want you to love me
Because you love me
Marc:Don't love me
One day we'll soar with each other
And be together forever
Jennifer:This love is like the sun
That comes out after a terrible storm
Both:Like two comets in the same galaxy
Marc:Don't love me
Jennifer:Don't love me
Marc:Don't love me...

Dangerously In Love 2

My favourite pics of Beyonce and below is one of my most favourite Beyonce's songs. She's so sexy, isn't she? If I were a man, she would definitely be my dream girl ;)

I don't have to tell what the song is all about... The title alone is enough to give you an idea what Beyonce is trying to say through this song. It is about a woman who is so dangerously in love... because she is so deeply in love with the man, she is open for heartache and hurt and pain. In other words, her love for this man becomes a threat to her because it makes her vulnerable.

What more can I say? I have been in love, still in love... and yes, love is the one thing that can hurt you the most! Even hatred could not hurt you this much...

I love you
Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness
I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world
I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leaveJust keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me
And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side
Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you
Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

The Day After Christmas

So, how was your Christmas? Got lots of presents? Since I don't celebrate Christmas, I don't expect to receive presents from anybody, of course.

I'm feeling a little bit better today. Actually, I'm trying to be positive... I know if I keep entertaining my blues, I won't get anywhere and I won't feel any better. So, let's just say that I'm looking forward for better things to come. There's no harm in this thing called "HOPE", right?

At home, we are a little bit busy. This afternoon, we all will go back to Putrajaya and tomorrow, we will catch the morning flight to Langkawi Island for the holiday. On the left is Simon Bracken's photoshot of Langkawi. To be exact, it's a shot of Pulau Singa Besar, one of the many islands in Langkawi. It's beautiful, isn't it?

Honestly, tomorrow would be my first time to an island and also my first time on a flight. Finally... when I'm about to reach my 29 years of age, I got to fly by an aeroplane. My dream is someday I would get to travel all around the world. Maybe taking the time off for a year or two and spend my time travelling to all the exotic, romantic and beautiful country around the world. I would love to go to a Europe trip and then round the exotic Latin American countries. Not to forget China, Korea and Japan... they have the most beautiful culture amidst the modernisation of their countries. And of course to South Africa, Morocco, Turkey, Egypt... There are so many things to see. I would die in peace if I could see all the 7 wonders of the world!

I think the trip to Langkawi would be a good start for me. Next year, I would definitely apply for an international passport (I have never got one!). And then I would start saving money for my first trip overseas... Bali perhaps? Or maybe the nearby Singapore.

Would I go on my dream trip on my own or with a friend? I think it's great if you could go on a holiday trip with someone special like your family or bestfriend or your boyfriend/girlfriend. It would be an extrawonderful trip if you could share the fun and excitement with someone, right? And then, when you got back and you grow old, you can always reminisce the memories together. What's the harm in sharing the fun and sweet memories?

Okay, let's go back to Langkawi. Langkawi is an island situated in Kedah, one of the 14 states in Malaysia. It is upnorth of Malaysia and has been hailed as one of the most beautiful islands in the world. So, can you now imagine how excited I am now? I'm so lucky because I can share this excitement with my family. I hope the weather there would be fine and I hope we would have a safe trip.

I would tell you all about my trip soon as I get back. Of course, I would upload the pictures taken there.

Christmas Blues

I woke up this morning feeling sad and blue.

I want to cry and I want to shout. But all these mixed feelings I have are locked inside my heart, they couldn't get out, making my body so weak and tired.

I have once had this feeling before. A very cruel and torturous feeling. Especially when you don't have anyone to confide in. I mean, in my case, I don't want to. I feel embarrassed to tell anyone that I am, yet again, failed in love and relationship. I can't even tell my bestfriend about it. And writing in this blog is the only way I can pour out my thoughts b'coz I know and I am sure, no one would come and surf this page. At least not anyone I know.

Is there a way to describe my feelings now? I don't think so. The contents in my heart are so tangled and jumbled up, I don't even know where is the beginning and where is the end. All I know is they have left me feeling so so sad... No, sad is not the word... I'm almost grieving... devastated and frustrated...

I am so dying to have this relationship work out. I thought I have found me a guy who can love me, appreciate me and respect. And I thought I have found me a guy whom I can love, respect and appreciate. But it's seems like, I'm the only one left feeling this way.

He has gone away now. With no explanation.

Can you imagine what I'm feeling right now? Not knowing what I have done wrong to deserve this... But I guess I must have done something terrible to him (without me realising it).

I don't know what to think anymore...

Let me tell you the truth. We have been together for more than a year now. But I don't even know his house address or his house phone number. I don't know his friends... not even their names. We met once every few months... for about 2,3 hours after work. The only movie we went to together is Spiderman 2 which was last year, during our first date. I'm so pathetic, am I? You might want to ask me how could I let myself fell in love with a guy who doesn't let me be part of his life, right? Well, my answer is... I don't know. All I know is I fell in love with him because he is him. I'm sorry I cannot come out with a better explanation.

And until today I still love him the way I have always loved him. That's why this is all very hurtful to me. Yes, somebody has told me before that the person who can hurt you the most is the one you really love. I guess this is what really happening to me.

What I really want right now is him coming back to me... but what is the point if he doesn't love me, right? Because love is about two people having mutual feelings towards each other... it's about giving and sharing.

Early in the morning i put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee has it's sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me
Now you say your juice is sour, it used to be so sweet
And i can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me
We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting me so deep
I got my pride, i will not cry
But it's making me weak

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everythings ok
Boy i am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me you're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk
You're like to think that i'm just crazy when i say that you've changed
I'm convinced i know the problem, you don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fair
I got my pride, i will not cry
Still i can't help but care

Ooh baby, look into the corner of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But i can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I give my everlasting love if you return love to me

If you feel it in your heart and you understand me stop right where you are,
everybody sing along with me
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to me
I need love, i need trust, your love

Various photos of me taken during Aidilfitri. That's my good friend, Laila. We were housemates, roommates and classmates during our University year. She is now the Senior Assistant Registrar at the Court of Appeal. Very proud of her!

The last picture is Coko, my family's cat. Isn't he cute?

My Funny Valentine

My funny valentine

Sweet comic valentine

You make me smile with my heart

You looks are laughable, unphotographable

Yet you're my favorite work of art

Are your looks less than greek

Is your mouth a little bit weak

When you open it to speak, are you smart

Don't change your hair for me

Not if you care for me

Stay little valentine stay

Each day is valentine's day

Season's Greetings

It's Christmas!!!
Time of joy and for lots of presents! What do you get from Mr. Claus this year! My wish for Christmas (I don't celebrate Christmas actually... but what's the harm?) is for happiness and good fortunes for my friends and family, especially to my boyfriend.

In a week's time, we'll say bye bye to year 2005 and welcome to year 2006. I am aspired to become a better person than I am now next year. I hope I can help more people next year and I will certainly continue to be a good friend to all of my friends! What's your resolutions for the coming new year?

Looking back from January 2005 to today, I would be proud to say that I have a good start in year 2005. I ceased practice as an advocate & solicitor and jumped to an international loss adjusting company as a claims administrator. I get to handle and administer professional indemnity claims from lawyers. Each of the claims I received is unique and different. Some of them are just plain weird... Next year, the department I am currently in would no longer be in operation. All the PI claims works will be handled by a new company. This week I got 2 phone calls from 2 big companies offering me jobs based on my work performance in my current company. Just imagine! They told me that I am dynamic, hard working, bright, sharp...! It's great to know that all my hard works are noticed and recognized. I have told my family and bestfriend of this good news. But right now, I wish my boyfriend is here with me because I want to share this with him too... I wonder where he is and what's he up to right now...

Anyways, this leads to the story of my love life this year. Well, I have to admit that my love life is somewhat shaky this year... and I think it is not getting any better. I would rather say that I am to be blamed. I guess with my over-emotional personality... suka imagine and fikir yg bukan2 (mostly negative things) has finally caused my boyfriend to lose his patience with me. Now, he has not been speaking to me for over 2 weeks! I don't know what to do. He refused to answer my calls or reply my messages. I know I must have done or say something wrong to him... or else why would he want to give me this silent treatment?

I came across his Friendster page just now. There are some cute photos of him. Looking at them made me realise how much I miss him right now. I hope I can find a way to make things right again. But I also feel kinda sad because there is this one young girl who wrote a testimonial for his site... From what I was reading, it seems like my boyfriend and this young girl has a special relationship going. I am trying not make any negative conclusions out of this... But honestly, I feel jealous and sad. What if I am only his spare part while waiting for this girl to come back from studying abroad? If only I can get an explanation right now... and an assurance... from him...

I don't know... I feel like I'm losing hope in this relationship already... With him not speaking to me... and the possibility that he has another girl in his life... I can't even begin to explain how I'm feeling right now. It's truly devastating when you know that you are losing the love of your life... and knowing that you have not a chance to make things right makes it even more unbearable! I have gone through this before. I'm not sure if I can go through it again this time. but I can feel that old wound inside my heart has started to bleed again...

what's the time?

seems it's already morning

i see the sky

it's so beautiful and blue

the tv's on but the only thing showing

is a picture of you...

oh i get up

and make myself some coffee

i try to read a bit

but the story's too thin

i thank the Lord above

that you're not here to see me

in this shape i'm in

spending my time

watching the days go by

feeling so small

i stare at the wall

hoping that you think of me too

i'm spending my time

i try to call

but i don't know what to tell you

i leave a kiss on your answering machine

oh help me please

is there someone who can make me

wake up from this dream

spending my time

watching the days go by

feeling so small

i stare at the wall

hoping that you are missing me too

i'm spending my time

watching the sun goes down

i fall asleep on the sound

of tears of the clown

a prayer's gone blind

i'm spending my

my friends keep telling me

"hey, life will go on"

time will make sure i get over you

this silly game of love

you play you win only to lose

I could cry every time I hear that song (Roxette, "Spending My Time"). One of my favourite songs. It perfectly captures the feeling of someone who has lost love but could not let go, the feeling of the first time you suddenly realised that you are alone. It's the same feeling I am having right now.

Abang, if you are reading this... I just want to say that I am so sorry if I have hurt your feelings. But please trust me... deep inside my heart, you own that special place...

Well, I would definitely say that this is not the kind of feeling I want to have to end this year. I want to be happy... I am dying to make everyone around me happy! But I guess, I am a failure in this aspect. God knows what in for me in year 2006.