Danielle... i don't have the talent to say much in words... but this song says it all... Thank you for being such a great friend and always sacrificing your time, energy, ear, shoulder, everything, to me.
Count on me through thick and thin
A friendship that will never end
When you are weak, I will be strong
Helping you to carry on
Call on me, I will be there, don't be afraid
Please believe me when I say, count on
I can see that it's hurting you,
I can feel your pain
It's hard to see the sunshine, through the rain,
oh I know sometimes it seems as if, it's never gonna end
But you'll get through it
Just don't give in cause you can
You can count on me
I know sometimes it seems as if, we're standing all alone
Be we'll get through it, 'cause love won't let us fall
There's a place inside of all of us
Where our faith in love begins
You should reach to find the truth in love
The answers there within, oh I know that life can make you feel
It's much harder than it really is
But we'll get through it, just don't give in
24 May 2005
11 May 2005
A Note On Friendship
Through my 28 years of life, I have met many people from different races,religions and backgrounds. Most of them I have befriended... some are still my friends (always in my thought but seldom contacted)...My fondest memories of friendship are those when I was still in uni... when I was completing my degrees. Jan, Laila, Eda, Tuya, Liza, Ana, Asdi, Aya & Ita...
They were and are still my good friends. But as I move on with my live, and grow older and more mature in terms of emotions and mentality, I find that some of the friendships seeds I sowed have grown into beautiful blossoming flowers... some just died and never grow. But the ones which are indeed in full bloom, I so cherish and love with all my heart.
But my most favourite and cherished friendship flower is "My Daisy". We started out as just friends with similar interest... books, music, movies... Then we realised that we have begun to understand each other better and to accept each other's flaws and bad habits. In time, we began to confide to each other and share the other's secrets. Strange but true... we seldom say "I love" to each other, and yet we always now that our love and hope for each other are beyond words!! And suddenly we become "bestfriends", a concept which sometimes wrongly interpreted and used.
"My Daisy" is indeed my bestfriend in the truest meaning of the term. Everything I do or I want to do... I must tell her and share with her. When I need someone to turn to, she is the first one that pops into my mind... the second one is my boyfriend. She always keeps an open mind to everything I want to tell her. And I have great pleasure entertaining her moods... happy, sad, lonely, excited, angry, embarass, fear... And I always try to make myself available to her as much as I can. Sounds like a devoted love, but it is actually not like that... We simply try to be there to each other and be honest to each other...
There are times when can't always be together but we always know that we are in each other's heart and thought. That's the power of "bestfriendship"! Somebody once had said to me that "Frienship is another kind of love... it's the happy feeling you get when you are laughing or sharing a secret". I find that this message rings true between me and "My Daisy". I find most pleasure when we laugh together and when she confides something in me.... and vice versa. Well, when we have a good friend by our side, we should be grateful. Not everybody find their "soulmate" in friendship.
Nevertheles, one day when I be somebody's wife, my friendship with "My Daisy" would surely take a different turn because when I am married, my responsibilities and priorities will change. No doubt, at those times, "My Daisy" would feel that she is neglected or abandoned. However, I believe that the meaning of friendship does not lie in the amount of time we spend together... but on the thoughts that we had for each other and knowing that she will be there when I need her, and I will be there when she needs me... I wish I have the lyrics to "You Got A Friend" (Carol King) but I think the poem of friendship below would do....
I got to know a girl
Whose past had not been a thrill
But once you get to know her deep inside
You'll begin to see her beauty, both inside and outside
I can't help but feel attracted
And trying hard not to be distracted
Although some may call it a crush
But then again it's not a feeling which came in a rush
I once saw her crying
And you know that she's hurting
Wanted to touch and hug her
But I guess my mind just began to wander
They say life is tough
And you'll never know when you may meet an arshloch !
Though circumstances had not been kind
She nevertheless is not blind
For she knows that the past
Would not determine her future
Unless she allows it to last
And not see the real picture
My hope for her is that she'll one day find
Both happiness and joy
In a person who would be kind
Who isn't just another ploy
In the meantime, she will find tremendous joy
In her kids who would not turn down a good toy
And if she ever needed a friend to be
I hope that she could find it in me
Jan, thank you for always being there for me...
They were and are still my good friends. But as I move on with my live, and grow older and more mature in terms of emotions and mentality, I find that some of the friendships seeds I sowed have grown into beautiful blossoming flowers... some just died and never grow. But the ones which are indeed in full bloom, I so cherish and love with all my heart.
But my most favourite and cherished friendship flower is "My Daisy". We started out as just friends with similar interest... books, music, movies... Then we realised that we have begun to understand each other better and to accept each other's flaws and bad habits. In time, we began to confide to each other and share the other's secrets. Strange but true... we seldom say "I love" to each other, and yet we always now that our love and hope for each other are beyond words!! And suddenly we become "bestfriends", a concept which sometimes wrongly interpreted and used.
"My Daisy" is indeed my bestfriend in the truest meaning of the term. Everything I do or I want to do... I must tell her and share with her. When I need someone to turn to, she is the first one that pops into my mind... the second one is my boyfriend. She always keeps an open mind to everything I want to tell her. And I have great pleasure entertaining her moods... happy, sad, lonely, excited, angry, embarass, fear... And I always try to make myself available to her as much as I can. Sounds like a devoted love, but it is actually not like that... We simply try to be there to each other and be honest to each other...
There are times when can't always be together but we always know that we are in each other's heart and thought. That's the power of "bestfriendship"! Somebody once had said to me that "Frienship is another kind of love... it's the happy feeling you get when you are laughing or sharing a secret". I find that this message rings true between me and "My Daisy". I find most pleasure when we laugh together and when she confides something in me.... and vice versa. Well, when we have a good friend by our side, we should be grateful. Not everybody find their "soulmate" in friendship.
Nevertheles, one day when I be somebody's wife, my friendship with "My Daisy" would surely take a different turn because when I am married, my responsibilities and priorities will change. No doubt, at those times, "My Daisy" would feel that she is neglected or abandoned. However, I believe that the meaning of friendship does not lie in the amount of time we spend together... but on the thoughts that we had for each other and knowing that she will be there when I need her, and I will be there when she needs me... I wish I have the lyrics to "You Got A Friend" (Carol King) but I think the poem of friendship below would do....
I got to know a girl
Whose past had not been a thrill
But once you get to know her deep inside
You'll begin to see her beauty, both inside and outside
I can't help but feel attracted
And trying hard not to be distracted
Although some may call it a crush
But then again it's not a feeling which came in a rush
I once saw her crying
And you know that she's hurting
Wanted to touch and hug her
But I guess my mind just began to wander
They say life is tough
And you'll never know when you may meet an arshloch !
Though circumstances had not been kind
She nevertheless is not blind
For she knows that the past
Would not determine her future
Unless she allows it to last
And not see the real picture
My hope for her is that she'll one day find
Both happiness and joy
In a person who would be kind
Who isn't just another ploy
In the meantime, she will find tremendous joy
In her kids who would not turn down a good toy
And if she ever needed a friend to be
I hope that she could find it in me
Jan, thank you for always being there for me...
08 May 2005
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Time After Time
Today is Mother's Day!
Mama was so happy when she got her present this morning. She loves the handbag! And she loves the card also!
I am going back to KL this afternoon, hope to reach Bangsar before dark. Tomorrow is another working day. So much to do... suddenly I can see the files piling on my table.
I was a practising lawyer for 2 years. After the change of wind however, I found my life more relax. This new job is interesting! Before this I have to deal with other lawyers as my opponents in court, sparring words... application after application, affidavit after affidavit, letter after letter... Sometimes things got so personal! Now the lawyers are at my mercy. Depending on me to help them deal with the lawsuits and claims against their practice or themselves personally. It's great to see things at a different angle. And the challenge is also a different type of challenge. Satisfaction comes when the claims are settled without much hassle, especially when everybody wins and the lawyers thank me! Hahahah!
But it would be wrong for me to say that this new job is easy. It is definitely not easy! I have to deal with my principals everyday... and the brokers representing the lawyers are so demanding, wanting to know every move I make and every step I take. At least this type of hustle bustle I can deal with... like eating nuts. Hahaha!!
After almost 3 years being in the shoes of a career woman, I find myself metamorphoses into a more mature and more rational person. I can now see my responsibilities and priorities more clearly. I am lucky because now I am still single. I can't imagine how I would cope with my job and my life if I am married and with children. That is why working mothers are miracles! Somehow they manage to put everything into place. My mama said, when you are a mother, every move you make becomes almost instinctive and your desire for survival becomes stronger. Of course... a mother has to survive because the whole family depends on her. Anyone doesn't agree with me?
Meanwhile, I have posted some pictures of me and my family last night. I have also added some new links. I recommend you guys visit the Solosong's website. She certainly has great music there. I especially love the songs from the 80's. She also has Edith Piaf's "La Vie En Rose". Such a beautiful melody! *Sigh*
If you are a Keanu Reeves's fan, check out KeanuWeb. They have great pics of Keanu plus the latest news on his films.
For poetry lovers, I added a special link to EveryPoet wherein they featured new and classic poets written by well known and celebrity poets. Honestly, I don't know a thing about poetry, but I love reading them when I have the time. I don't have any poems collection but the ones I have read are from this cool website. Go there!
I am currently browsing the net to find other interesting websites to share with you. So far, these 3 are my favourites.
Okay, the song I want to share with you today is "If Tomorrow Never Comes", originally by Garth Brooks. You have probably heard the cover version by Ronan Keating. But my favourite version is the one sang by this R&B group, Joose (or is it Jooce? I can't remember). I don't think Joose still exists tho'.
Such a beautiful song... the words really touch my heart. I agree that it would be a great regret if we forget to remind someone we care how much we love him/her. Actually, the simple words "I love you" could land a great effect on the one who hears them. So, don't take the meaning of "I love you" for granted. Say it only when you mean it.
Mama was so happy when she got her present this morning. She loves the handbag! And she loves the card also!
I am going back to KL this afternoon, hope to reach Bangsar before dark. Tomorrow is another working day. So much to do... suddenly I can see the files piling on my table.
I was a practising lawyer for 2 years. After the change of wind however, I found my life more relax. This new job is interesting! Before this I have to deal with other lawyers as my opponents in court, sparring words... application after application, affidavit after affidavit, letter after letter... Sometimes things got so personal! Now the lawyers are at my mercy. Depending on me to help them deal with the lawsuits and claims against their practice or themselves personally. It's great to see things at a different angle. And the challenge is also a different type of challenge. Satisfaction comes when the claims are settled without much hassle, especially when everybody wins and the lawyers thank me! Hahahah!
But it would be wrong for me to say that this new job is easy. It is definitely not easy! I have to deal with my principals everyday... and the brokers representing the lawyers are so demanding, wanting to know every move I make and every step I take. At least this type of hustle bustle I can deal with... like eating nuts. Hahaha!!
After almost 3 years being in the shoes of a career woman, I find myself metamorphoses into a more mature and more rational person. I can now see my responsibilities and priorities more clearly. I am lucky because now I am still single. I can't imagine how I would cope with my job and my life if I am married and with children. That is why working mothers are miracles! Somehow they manage to put everything into place. My mama said, when you are a mother, every move you make becomes almost instinctive and your desire for survival becomes stronger. Of course... a mother has to survive because the whole family depends on her. Anyone doesn't agree with me?
Meanwhile, I have posted some pictures of me and my family last night. I have also added some new links. I recommend you guys visit the Solosong's website. She certainly has great music there. I especially love the songs from the 80's. She also has Edith Piaf's "La Vie En Rose". Such a beautiful melody! *Sigh*
If you are a Keanu Reeves's fan, check out KeanuWeb. They have great pics of Keanu plus the latest news on his films.
For poetry lovers, I added a special link to EveryPoet wherein they featured new and classic poets written by well known and celebrity poets. Honestly, I don't know a thing about poetry, but I love reading them when I have the time. I don't have any poems collection but the ones I have read are from this cool website. Go there!
I am currently browsing the net to find other interesting websites to share with you. So far, these 3 are my favourites.
Okay, the song I want to share with you today is "If Tomorrow Never Comes", originally by Garth Brooks. You have probably heard the cover version by Ronan Keating. But my favourite version is the one sang by this R&B group, Joose (or is it Jooce? I can't remember). I don't think Joose still exists tho'.
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So i turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If i never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way i feel
About her in my heart
(chorus)
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much i loved her
Did i try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love i gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
'Cause i've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much i loved them
Now i live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So i made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how i feel
*chorus*
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes
Such a beautiful song... the words really touch my heart. I agree that it would be a great regret if we forget to remind someone we care how much we love him/her. Actually, the simple words "I love you" could land a great effect on the one who hears them. So, don't take the meaning of "I love you" for granted. Say it only when you mean it.
07 May 2005
Mother's Day
Tomorrow would be the Mother's Day.
I went to the store with my sister to buy something nice for mama. After browsing around, we finally found the perfect gift for her. A cute black handbag with wooden handle and a big daisy print at the front. I'm sure mama would love it! I also bought a pair of strap-buckled shoes for my other sister. Her birthday was on 30th April... this year will be her 25th year of life. She can't be with us this week 'cause she has to do some preparations for her short course next week. I hope she'll get a boyfriend this year. Hehehe...
How's your relationship with your mum?
My mama is a working mother. She will be 51 years old this year and she still looks like she's 40. Even though she's working, she never failed to cook for us and take care of us. She's more than a mother... she's also a friend. Somehow, she always find the time to listen to our stories, our complaints, our whinings. If someone ask me how I regard my mama, I would say that mama is our angel, our rock to hold on to. Yes, she may have scolded us sometimes and mad at us sometimes, but we always know that all her actions are her reactions to her love for us.
That's a "Song For Mama", written by Kenneth "Babyface" Edmonds and performed by Boyz II Men... one of my favourite songs. Other songs which I think can suitably be dedicated to our mamas are "Because You Loved Me" (Celine Dion) and "I Turn To You" (Christina Aguillera). Both are also my favorite songs.
Well, can't wait to see mama's reaction when she receive her gift tomorrow!
I went to the store with my sister to buy something nice for mama. After browsing around, we finally found the perfect gift for her. A cute black handbag with wooden handle and a big daisy print at the front. I'm sure mama would love it! I also bought a pair of strap-buckled shoes for my other sister. Her birthday was on 30th April... this year will be her 25th year of life. She can't be with us this week 'cause she has to do some preparations for her short course next week. I hope she'll get a boyfriend this year. Hehehe...
How's your relationship with your mum?
My mama is a working mother. She will be 51 years old this year and she still looks like she's 40. Even though she's working, she never failed to cook for us and take care of us. She's more than a mother... she's also a friend. Somehow, she always find the time to listen to our stories, our complaints, our whinings. If someone ask me how I regard my mama, I would say that mama is our angel, our rock to hold on to. Yes, she may have scolded us sometimes and mad at us sometimes, but we always know that all her actions are her reactions to her love for us.
You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn't anything
Or anyone i can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If i didn't have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever i was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You'll always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times
Mama, mama you know i love you
Oh you know i love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, i just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul
You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when i was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when i was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me i can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl in my life
Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinking about you
I'll never go a day without my mama
That's a "Song For Mama", written by Kenneth "Babyface" Edmonds and performed by Boyz II Men... one of my favourite songs. Other songs which I think can suitably be dedicated to our mamas are "Because You Loved Me" (Celine Dion) and "I Turn To You" (Christina Aguillera). Both are also my favorite songs.
Well, can't wait to see mama's reaction when she receive her gift tomorrow!
Hometown Blues
I am back to my hometown after 3 months of starting my new career in KL, the big city. Of course my parents are happy to see their firstborn. My mom was saying, "You look healthy! You sure eat a lot in KL." Bummer! My younger brother and sister are also at home.
Actually, there is nothing "blues" about coming back to my hometown. It's just that, yesterday I went bowling with my officemates and "Still Got The Blues" by Gary Moore was playing in the air. I haven't heard that song for years!! It was one of my favourite songs when I was 13.
Used to be so easy to give my heart away
But I found out the hard way
There's a price you have to pay
I found out that love was no friend of mine
I should have known time
after time
So long, it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you
Used to be so easy to fall in love again
But I found out the hard way
It's a road that leads to pain
I found that love was more than just a game
You're playin' to win
But you lose just the same
So long, it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you
So many years since I've seen your face
Here in my heart, there's an empty space
Where you used to be
So long, it was so long ago
But I've still got the blues for you
Though the days come and go
There is one thing I know
I've still got the blues for you.
Reading through the lyrics, one can't help but think how love can be so cruel. Even the memories of a crushed love can make your heart hurting and bleeding like it happened only yesterday. Especially when your are reminscing the whole thing at the time when you are lonely and you are feeling the whole world is against you.
I had bad experience with love myself.
It happened last year. I don't want to do a story telling here but to cut the long story short, we broke off because he was a selfish two-timer and professional liar. He got married after 3 months we broke off. I was beyond devastated at first. But with the help of my friends, I got through the mess feeling stronger.
Honestly, I am truly over him. I already got me a new boyfriend. But there are times when I suddenly remember about my undeserving ex and can't help but think about the "what ifs" and "what nots". I am not talking about the possibility of going back to him since he is already married and he is such a bastard anyway... My point is, I still bear this anger and frustration over the break off which I have never the opportunity to tell him or confront him. I so love to spat to his face or break his arm. Clearly, I am still not in the forgiving mood.
Hahaha! I sound like a mad for revenge bitch! Actually, I am not. Like I said, it was a thinking I sometime had when I was lonely. Not that I always thought about my ex! Puhleaseeee!! I have lots of more important things to think about. But sometimes revenge can be so sweet.
Well, that's my kinda blues... Not really like Gary Moore's kinda "blues"... Hehehe!
Why don't you share your blues with me ?
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