Gosh!
It's been a long time... when was the last time I updated my blog anyway?
Actually, I have some new pics to upload but since it is difficult to do it
from my office computer, I'll do it some other time.
So... what's to talk about today? We Malaysians are in festive season.
We've just celebrated Deepavali and Aidilfitri. Coming December, we are
going to celebrate Christmas and a week later, New Year.
Wow! How time flies fast while we are having fun!
My family and I celebrated Aidilfitri in so much joy and fun. It was great
to be together again. We have a spring cleaning a few days before
Aidilfitri... we cleaned the house, changed the cushion covers, changed the
curtains, baked cookies and so on. The funnest part was going shopping. It
was not a personal shopping actually. We went out shopping for some new
clothes for Yus (my lil bro' who is actually not that "lil"... he's more
than 180cm tall!) and Adik (my lil sis).
On Aidilfitri, we all went to my grandparents' house in Seremban and Hulu
Langat. It was tiring but it was also worth it.
Now we are nearing the end of year 2005. Remember last year the tsunami
hits most of South East Asia countries a day after Christmas? I hope this
year we can say farewell to year 2005 in good mood, contentment and
gratification. Even though there are still some parts of this world where
people still suffers from war, famine and discrimination, at least we know
that we are still living in this part of the world where peace is in order.
Next year I'll be 29 years old. My parents and grandparents have been
nagging about my unmarried state since 4 years ago, i.e. as soon as I turn
25. But this year, the tension of being nagged for lack of marriage
proposals in my favour (actually, I have received zero marriage proposal to
speak of..) intensified as I am nearing the big three oh. Starting next
year, I'll be praying very hard to God to open my boyfriend's heart to
propose marriage to me. Abang, if you are reading this, please seriously
consider my request!
Anyway, I admit that sometimes I do think about marriage or being married.
Every time the subject enters my mind, I would either have a cold feet or a
sheer longing... depending on what I was imagining about marriage at that
time. However, considering my age and my achievements in life, I am
actually more than ready to become a wife or a mother.
My mum told me that you cannot actually be certain whether you are ready or
not to commit yourself into a marriage until you are married. Well... that
really explains the rate of divorce we are having nowadays! But somehow, I
do agree with my mum. Recently I was asked by my boss to attend a meeting
with our broker alone. I thought, shit, I'm not ready for that. I'm still
new in this job. But my boss said he knows I can do it... But I knew I
can't do it! But I did it anyway for fear of losing my job. Amazingly, the
soonest I took my seat at the broker's office, I felt calm and almost
serene. When the meeting started, I realized that my boss was right... I
could do it! Of course I blurted out some stupid remarks now and then
during the meeting but as a whole, I was doing all right.
So, that's why I agree with my mum's opinion about getting married. You
have to be in that position first in order to know whether or not you are
ready. And the fact that you are willing to be in that position is clear
enough evidence that you are indeed ready. The only point left is whether
or not you can carry the responsibilities and make sacrifices expected of
you during that marriage. I am sure that if you really love your
husband/wife, you could even move mountains!
Anyway, since I am the eldest child in my family and the first grandchild
to my grandparents, it is important to everyone in my family ( including
among my uncles, aunts and cousins) to see me happily married to a good
guy. I think I have found the good guy already. The only thing is, he
looks like he's not keen on marriage just yet. What am I supposed to do?
Cheat him into marrying me? Well... I'm not going that low...
I think enough talk about marriage. It makes my head pounds.
